so in case you want to hear about how unimaginably pathetic i’ve become: i haven’t revised half a shit today. have had a dentist’s appointment though and as a result i have nearly suffocated while eating lunch because half my face was numb and now i have a killer pain in my jaw since the effects of the anti-pain injection wore off. beautiful.
i’ve spent 2 hours reading Bridget Jones: Edge of Reason after lunch (i’m ashamed of myslef) then decided i’d have to start being productive so i took out the trash. half of it was chocolate wrappers. mine. i am afraid to check my weight becuase i’m sure i put on 3 tons during the summer.
anyway, i wanted some confort so i turned on damn social websites. dude who is supposed to be my friend and wants me to talk him to sleep whenever i can (slight insomnia + slightly inflated sense of self-importance + massive overthinking problem) isn’t responding.
oh and earlier friend called. whined about exams and all, she’s gonna flunk everything yada, yada when suddenly she goes: oh and i was thinking maybe i’d take that unnecessary exam, too you know since i have the opportunity. if she had time to even consider doing the only thing that is not required to do this school-year well fuck me lady, but you ovbiously know EVERYTHING that you had time to study that as well. bitch. i feel even worse. i’m basically really stupid. slow. you know. unorganized. a mess.
bitchfriend rang, dude kindly ignored me and dentist asked how was my uni going. i haven’t has so much social interaction in months.
oh yeas, i haven’t inserted a read more break because i’m a dick and i don’t care. unfollow me. like it could actually make my life any more miserable ha ha i mean.. can’t sink deeper once you’ve hit rock bottom, employed a jackhammer and continued to dig a huge hole for yourself.
one last thing. ….permission to kill self?
ps: am even more pathetic than bridget jones at the peak of her patheticness. at least she shagged damn daniel cleaver/hugh grant. my equivalent of disgustingly sexy gorgeous guy isn’t speaking to me. since 3 months. and even before that he NEVER responded to any text or call EVER. okay once he did. one he called me after he woke up asking what was it i wanted when i called him 3 days ago.
aynway i’m sorry to spread my misery as i’m fully aware i’m a sad and pathetic piece of
meat fat and i should just shut up