today i have to go back to the city and to uni and shits…. i couldn’t possibly feel more meh at the moment… the uni people didn’t even produce a schedule yet or lab gropus or anything, really.
and whilst on holidays, i didn’t even get ot see my fluffy sheep friend. i did see some horses, though but they were quite uninterestend in being fed sweet, fresh grass…they smelled chocolate on me and wanted that ^^
i don’t want to go back to uni, i don’t want to see people… i don’t want to see my peculiar weird friend who isn’t speaking to me currently. god knows what has been running through his crazy mind all this time. and the only two people i might want to see are unavaliable. one has to get drunk and drunker constantly and the other isn’t even in the country.
sometimes i think i won’t only die alone, i will live alone. gosh christ jesus. i have to continue tidying up. yesterday i discovered 3 dead bugs in my bedroom in plan sight and then plenty of spiders, dead and not so much. my last day of legitimate “summer holidays” and i spent them digging through papers and smacking spiders. could be worse, tho :D